So, I have been doing some thinking over this past week, working too, why of course. Thinking though! I have been thinking about high school and even before where I had been bullied, mistreated, and what it all came down to was jealousy. I was different. I didn’t fit the mold of just fitting in. I had my own opinions, but back then I remained silent and it repressed me. It repressed and depressed me.
As I have gotten older and well, more fine lines and wrinkles, I cannot even believe how I have blossomed in my own skin, how my stretch marks and chub have turned into such beauty. I found my voice. I refuse to repress my voice. If I have something to say, I say it. Or, I keep it to myself. I am all about the universe and karma. I believe in myself and what I do and it shows daily. I have all the abundance I could ask for as a result of how I live. I have limited and continue to limit any threats to that abundance, and by threats I mean sheer jealousy. And, the majority of the jealousy is by other women 🙁
I have realized that as much as I have been trying to be human, I had green eyed monsters just wanting my life, not looking at me like gee, what can I do to make it or I want to have my own things, no people I deal with want to steal my joy and have my life with little to no effort. As money doesn’t go on trees, neither does genuine, loving, people. I see what the world has to offer and I am blessed. We can all be blessed if we find ourselves and what we need to be responsible for and stop blaming everyone else.
I am less than concerned with others. I look up to Oprah, Maya Angelou, Meghan Kelly and so many more beautiful souls. I admire them. I think to myself, what can do to work harder to be more like them. I never think, well what can they do for me or give to me? Or who can I attach to like a parasite to take from and then be ungrateful. I am not sure what went wrong or why people think that people are objects or money goes on trees, but I pray that things start to change.
To all the haters and I mean all: “Thank you for reaffirming all the beauty I possess that I never even knew all these years. All the hate and jealousy that continues to come my way, I even turn into a positive. I see it as flattering. You make me even more special than I already know I am.”
I know my life is my treasure and it is truly a treasure to a land of gold, my own el dorado, go figure!