I spent a lifetime stuffing emotions, venting them out with prayers of being saved, until I finally decided to learn acceptance, confront the necessary, ignore the haters, but always let them know my introverted keep to myself world can always transform at a moments notice to the lone wolf that refuses to back down to the insecure shit you wish to deliver.
2017 is the year I am giving up stuffing my emotions! It’s the last year of garbage pale warriors who try to infiltrate my life. I am chaining the locks metaphorically speaking and moving on. It’s my time, it’s your time, it’s all of our times. Inhale the glory, exhale the everything that no longer serves you stuff that has contributed to intoxicating your soul with reminders of what you thought you weren’t, what you thought you didn’t deserve and anything that even remotely feels like it dims your light.
I always refer to the dimming of the light and I must say that it’s quite simple, anything or anyone that you allow or feels that they can manipulate your golden heart with selfishism I’ll call it, good riddens. Anyone who looks at your life and wants some credit even an ounce, have a seat. Always room for a supporter, always room for someone to make you feel absolutely beautiful but never room for someone who wants you to save them.
For all my searching for my savior I realized it was always within me, in the mirror looking back out. I feel more joy, more life for the integrity and amazing self I have created, I have worked for. As I continue to stop stuffing it leaves room for more love, joy and health!
I will inhale my present with conviction and honor my past. Without all the days as a quiet observing sheep I could have never transitioned into a encouraging, ferocious, passionate wolf.